Last Sunday, during the interview with Boy Abunda on The Buzz, Billy Crawford revealed the real reason of the break-up of his long time girlfriend of five years, Nikki Gil.
The interview goes:
“Naghiwalay na ba kayo ni Nikki Gil?”
“Maraming tanong saan, kailan, sayang. Tell me Billy what you can?”
“Nawawala ako. I’m very lost, very CONFUSED. Walang kinalaman si Nikki. It all Boils down to me. It’s an indescribable feeling, it’s like all these negativity, confusions and the sadness, the hurt. Nikki has not been anything but good to me. Everything I said there a while ago , you know, she’s a dream come true, when it comes to finding the right one. Pero it’s hard to find the right one when you know you’re not right. And it’s been a while, it’s been a while I’ve been, I don’t know who to blame…”
“It’s been a while I’m back to being myself. Lahat ng tao kasi nakikita na masayahin ako, matulongin. I tried to do everything I can do to make everyone happy, especially the people around me. And I forgot what makes me happy. I forgot who I am. I don’t know what I’m doing ‘cos all I know what to do is work. It’s been 26 years I’ve been in the industry.I’ve been everywhere and it is the first time I’ve ever felt this way.That’s why I asked everyone not to blame Nikki. . . ”
“She has no fault, I’m not a perfect guy, I’m not the perfect person. I’ve done some things in my life then that I regretted, and she supported me, she understood. She was there. But I tend to go home by myself. It’s do simple kasi to go around with friends and to enjoy and forget about the problems, whatever you’re going through. Especially kung me naririnig kang problema na pinagdaanan ng kaibigan mo. Sobrang daling makalimutan kung ano ‘yong problema. Nakalimutan ko, ako.”
“I’m the one who is completely lost and I’m searching. I asked her this, you know, give me that chance to find myself ‘cuz it’s very difficult.”
Billy will be leaving the country to be with his family in the US to continue to search for himself and clear what’s confusing him.